somehow, i find that these few months, my threshold of patience is dwindling until it's barely there at all. i find myself getting pissed at every single thing. i lash out at my friends at every possible opportunity of getting pissed. i wasn't this kind of person several years ago. it's strange how i turned into a totally different, cold person after i've started working. however, yesterday morning i was rediscovering the virtues of patience. i lashed out at a friend, and then it hit me. it hit me that this wasn't the real me. it hit me that the real me will not deal with this kind of tension this way. instead, i would've steadied my composure even more and contemplate on how i should respond next. yes, that is how i worked, and that is how i will work from now on. i will not lose my temper easily again. the only exception will be when i think it's strategically suitable to do so.
